18 seconds

This afternoon I got a phone call from a friend that made me cry.  The good tears. My friend Rachael phoned to tell me A REALLY important something.  She just saw me yesterday and so I knew it must be a DIRE emergency for her to be calling me at 3:50 pm today.  She started right in, "Did you see the video?  June is walking!!"  I said, "What? What are you talking about?"  She continued, "I'm sitting right here in the waiting room in the therapy building and I just saw June walk by me! Like down the hall...with no one holding her hand...like she's been doing it for years!!" I gasped and clung to the chair.  Was this really happening?  Rachael of all people was delivering this news. Rachael, who has a daughter much like mine, who knows full well the anticipation and the waiting for the miracle of walking to occur.  We both cried.

My mind started reeling.  My 4 and a half year old baby's life started flashing before my eyes like in one of those Hallmark commercials sort of way.  I thought of those first agonizing motions she made to crawl, I thought of the first time she looked into my eyes, the first and only time she said the word "more".  I thought of her perched on the table, perched on the piano listening to notes and vibrations penetrate her core, and then, even last night snuggled up beside me so tightly because we both had insomnia.

I would no longer be introducing my daughter and getting strange looks that my four year old was in the stroller and my one year old was crossing the street all by herself, leading the way.  I would no longer say, "This is June and she doesn't walk or talk yet, but she's working real hard to do it real soon."  I might, just MIGHT, by Winter be able to tred through snow and stand and look up at the Connecticut Winter sky as snow flakes fall on our eyelashes and in our mouths and we giggle that cute June-bug giggle.  And maybe, just maybe June bug will twirl.  By Christmas. 

When June got home from therapy, I peeked out the upstairs window and watched her get out of the car and wobble her way into the house...with some guidance.  I grabbed my kids and we all raced down the stairs 100 miles an hour and greeted her at the door with kisses and hugs.  She must have known her secret was out because she smiled her impish grin and then of course I had to get my camera and we had to go exploring in the yard and the sidewalk, because I had to see for myself...all 18 seconds of it.

And that was a good day.  I have that good feeling and I am thanking God, and singing Hallelujahs and sort of floating around...that kind of feeling when you think you might be in love, or you first find out you are pregnant (for the first time), or you are about to take a trip to an island.  I would like to thank Kayla, June's attendant for having the ingenious idea to put a belt on her in the therapy office one week ago today.  And of course, I am forever indebted to Kat who has encouraged her to walk as much as possible with holding her hand and loving her like her own.  June has been blessed beyond measure with teachers and therapists from CHKD, Early Intervention, and Norfolk Public Schools.  You guys rock!

Steps

I had the privilege of watching a little 4 year old boy this week who stole my heart in about two hours and who decided to break it the third night. He came down with croup in the middle of the night and I swear I was watching my own child there, gasping for breath, praying over him that he would somehow make it to morning.  It was frightening at times.  Croup is a weird thing.  It gets really bad at night and then by morning, your kid is bouncing around and smiling, acting mostly normal, all except for the nasty barking cough which will again, become too much to bear the next night, filling up lungs and shrinking airways. 

Isn't that how it is?  We dance in these circular waves of existence, acting like things are fine at times, and refusing, or pushing down emotion, stuffing and compacting old and new trash, and then when we take a second to rest, we're choking, gasping for air, asking God to take away the pain because we can't breathe, can't sleep.

It's hard to balance your life perfectly.  Having it all equal out into 8 perfect apple-pie sections where we spend the right time in the right place, with each child, husband, friend, and God...having the right amount of time set aside for cleaning bathrooms, dusting shelves, baking bread, running 3 miles, reading some non-fiction, researching the latest obsession on google, emailing a teacher, socializing, being hospitable, being crafty, adventurous and daring, blogging, and baring your soul to one another. 

This got me thinking about how simple June's life is, how simple it will always be.  She will always be searching for the beautiful in the landscape...the lines, the contrasting color.  She is generally content when her basic need of being fed, clothed and toileted is met.  She could live in a yurt and in fact, would want to.  She will most likely never have an over-crowded life, too much to think about or time-manage.  She will forever take pleasure in the little loves of nature like the wind blowing, or the trees swaying, or water splashing.  She will take her time learning to talk, learning to walk. 

My little June certainly teaches me something almost daily, and tonight as we practiced walking with her new "belt" on, I saw her face light up with joy as we praised her for her accomplishments, every little step a little closer to the real steps that she will take one day soon. 

We ended the night in a living room huddle.  The clock kept ticking away and we kept prolonging the bed-time ritual.  I almost never do that, but tonight, it felt good to watch June walk in circles with her belt on, face beaming.  Tonight, I read a magazine while the kiddos played on Daddy, taking deep, strong, healthy breaths and hearty laughs.  Tonight, I made pumpkin pancakes and eggs for dinner, because a green veggie and chicken (again) seemed too boring.  Tonight, I let the dishes rest in the sink while I reflected on the day.  Tonight, I spent extra time reading to June bug the story of the Velveteen Rabbit...because she was listening.  With all my family snoring upstairs, tonight I will join them.

For the joy-less

I went to a women's conference a couple years ago and I remember the speaker having us chant the mantra that we will choose joy...and to go forth.  After I left and I was digesting these words with all my friends in the car, something felt funny, and wasn't right.  How do you just choose joy?  Like you're ordering a big mac, or an ice cream sundae with a cherry on top.  My friend confided in me that she had been in a deep depression and couldn't just get out of it.  How do you get out of it?  That slump.  That deep dark hole when the circumstances for sure, aren't changing.  I started thinking, pondering about my own life. 

I have struggled with deep deep depression, to the point of having to be picked up off my bed, packed up, and carried home by my mother. I slept nights with music playing and I slept the day away wishing it were night.  I came out of my room to eat fruit, maybe. 

I have experienced heartbreak like no other, having a relationship for many many years and having to let go of him...forever.  I felt like I would be ripped in half or my heart would literally fall out of its chest.  It scarred me so deeply that I still think about it and dream about it to this day....15 years later.

I cried tears of pain as I watched my friend's 3 year old girl laugh and chase  my 4 year old boy around the cupcake store, mourning the loss of what would never be between my son and my disabled daughter, and also between my friend's daughter and my own daughter who were previously and subconsciously labeled "best friends" in the womb. 

I was going through a near nervous breakdown when I was 6 months pregnant with my third child.  My back was thrown out and I couldn't lift June anymore.  The entire contents of my kitchen was strewn about my house as they zipped up my kitchen, and labeled it a toxic wasteland.  We were also in financial crisis.  Our renter hadn't paid us in 10 months.  My sweet sister came and got my kids from me for two weeks.  I felt like I was giving them up for adoption. 

I have hated my own husband to the point of wishing we had never gotten married.  It was all a big mistake.  I cried myself to sleep with my Bible open on my chest hoping that somehow God's word would get through to my inner core.

But somehow I was supposed to choose joy in these circumstances.  Christians had been chanting it for years, since I was a child.  Well, through this process of grieving losses, trying to forget what could've beens and managing my own seratonin levels, I figured out something.

Joy chose me.  It was a gift.

In all those instances where I was able to walk away with joy in my heart, there were deep deep moments of grieving.  Some events were years, others were days, but the thing that kept me going was not that I had chosen joy, but rather I had put my hope in a God who would grant peace for the moment and for sure someday lift me up out of the dark, slimy pit. The only choosing I did was to not put my hope in the unhappy situation changing. 

And God has been faithful every single time.
He gives JOY, not necessarily immediately, but ultimately.

"Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up.  You will increase my honor and comfort me once again." Psalm 71:20-21

"Weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes in the morning." Psalm 30:5b



And it washes over us unexpectedly.

Retreating

I am a fairly organized person, or at least I thought I was until the other day when I went to bring my son's medical form to the doctor's office so they could fill it out stating that he has had his appropriate immunizations and is all set for Kindergarten.  The receptionist looked at me and said, "Ma'am, we can't fill this out because your son never had his five year old check-up."  What?  There must be something wrong with their computer.  My son is 5 and 3/4.  He had his shots months ago, I remember. Doesn't the whole office remember? He screamed so loud we had two nurses holding his limbs down. "Please check your files. I am positive he has had his check-up."  I never miss appointments.  She checked again and reiterated what I already heard.  Embarrassingly, she set up an emergency appointment and we are set to take him there on Monday. 

So I guess you could say I am forgetting things.  I am a little bit not like myself.  That's what happens when you travel the whole summer.  I actually feel refreshed and revitalized after last week and I wanted to share with you about how we were ministered to last week.  I can't tell you how important this was for us.  Let me start off by saying that if you have a family with typical children, this vacation will not likely sound exciting to you at all.  But if you are a family with disability, please read on.  You need to go there, to sign up tonight.

A few months ago, we learned about the Joni and Freinds Family Retreat at a FIN conference here in Hampton Roads.  It was a retreat for families who had disability and was relatively inexpensive and included room, food and many other things which I will explain.  We didn't really know what to expect, but we signed up anyway, thinking it sounded pretty neat.

The location of this specific retreat was in Flat Rock, North Carolina at a Retreat Center called Bonclarken I and it was in the beautiful mountains on a lake.  We drove up with our van and they were cheering us up the driveway, calling us by name.  As we got out of our van, three angelic women appeared and said, "We are here to help you."  These women were STM's (short term missionaries) and each one of them was prayerfully assigned to each one of my children.  These women were excited to be there, completely over-qualified and ready to serve us in any way, shape or form.  I literally burst into tears and couldn't stop crying tears of joy as they led me through registration.  I almost felt naked not having to look after babies while signing papers and filling out forms.  We were dear friends by dinner.

The mornings were spent with the children in programs specifically designed for them.  June was in a "quiet" program and she did all sorts of therapeutic things, like run her hands through rice/noodles and swing, listening to music. Rich and I listened to a speaker, worshiped and then met in small groups with other people who had incredble stories to tell. The afternoons were spent together as a family with or without the STM's.  Charlotte always napped and was watched by her STM, but we were able to do zip lining, June did horseback riding and James did archery.  There was also nightly programming, but our kids had a hard time lasting that long and we were usually back to the hotel by then.

I highly recommend this retreat to anyone who has disability in the family (there are several locations across US).  It was so unique being able to eat dinner together in a cafeteria where there were wheelchairs and people spilling things, and strange noises.  The judgment was erased.  Everyone was free to be themselves.  No one stared at my child unless to say she was adorable.

Approximately Berry

Well we've been in CT for about 4 weeks now and I know I have been very delinquent in posting an update.  June has been attending Speech Camp at Quilt Autism and Speech Center and I admit that I was initially a bit skeptical about the whole speaking thing, or any words in general, but my husband and I really knew this was the Summer to get serious...after all, doctors have been saying if she doesn't speak before the age of 5, it is unlikely that she will speak.  What we've found at Quilt has not been necessarily rocket science, but basically a positive approach, where the outlook is much different than what I've found in the medical world.  Their outlook is, "Your child will talk" and you treat her as such.  If she is making ANY sound at all, she is trying to tell you something, and it is your job to be a detective and find out what she is saying to you.

We didn't realize this, but all along we've been subtily letting June use other ways to communicate (aug comm devices, gentle tapping/leading with the hand, crying).  These ways worked and she was able to eat a meal without a tantrum.  What we didn't realize we were doing was allow her not to speak.  The owner of the program told me she gets kids in there who are typically 3 or 8. They are three years old because they have come early with hopes to get a kickstart on the delay in talking.  They are much easier to teach, but by eight, they have developed bad habits of using other means to communicate, therefore making it a much more difficult process.  By the age of eight, the school system has either helped them, or failed them, and if they are not speaking, parents realize it is not a developmental problem anymore, and they start looking for alternatives, such as Quilt.

So the team started with June like this.  They looked at her speech....what does she say regularly?  (Eeeeeee).  So, in order for June to get what she wanted, she would have to say "eeee".  If she wanted a blueberry, she said "eeee", if she wanted her hands washed, she said "eeeee".  They accepted her Eeeee as her words.  Then they moved on from there.  Because she was good at "eeeee", they started to ask for initial consonants coupled with "eeee", like "bawee" for "berry" and  "key" for cookie.  I am happy to report that it is working!  She is also transferring this knowledge to home as well.  She has been caught saying "lu" for "love", "baweee" for "berry" and (Aunt) "Brie", "gi" for "drink" and "keyoo" for "cookie".  Coupled with the three hour intense day of one-on-one therapy and being surrounded by people who love her, she is thriving and for this, I am grateful.  My secret desire would be, for her to attend Quilt all year round.  The Director and Head Speech Pathologist believes she would only need one year there before she could move straight to speech therapy.  It is exciting to know that June will be able to communicate with us using these word approximations! 

Thank you again for your financial and spiritual support.  We feel God carrying us through our time away from my husband and my family surrounds us with much love and physical endurance.

June's new recent love: Marmelade's reading glasses and a good magazine.

 June has been sleeping through the night for about 11 hours straight.  I believe this is partially due to her new gluten and dairy free diet which has eliminated much of her gastro-intestinal issues. 

The Big Chill

Today was Father's Day and I had known that Rich would be leaving with James to go to a Daddy-Son birthday party at Motor World and I also knew I would be stuck with the mutes by myself to entertain, bathe and feed them.  So I admit I was dreading it just a little, but we made the best of it.  Judge me if you want.  I'm a B+ kind of mother.  It's hard talking to a one year old and a four year old for 4 hours straight and they say nothing back, even when they are your own.  My husband, however would relish this opportunity.  He is a much better person than I am in this department.  I decided things always get better when there's water around, so I stretched their bathing suits over their wiggly little bodies and stuck them in the pool and let the cold water fill ever so slowly.  They stayed there for an hour splashing around and getting only slightly whiny toward the end.

Well,  5:00 pm came and what would you do at this point if you were the Momma?  Give them a bath in the pool, that's what.  There was no way we were moving the circus up to the tub to do it all again.  So I stripped those girls down and scrubbed them up real good.  I admit that there were a few seconds where they actually looked like they were in a concentration camp*.  I felt bad at this point.  They were clinging on to each other, freezing and crying as I was pouring cold water over their heads.  I wrapped them up in towels and made my way into the house as quick as I could with the Hiding Place music and Corrie Ten Boom flooding my thoughts.  I told them I had to do it.  It's hard having twins.  Harder to have one giant twin who doesn't walk, and one twin who walks but doesn't come when called.  Here they are in a better state, all clean and reading magazines like teenagers.

Martha Stewart, no less.  I must have worn them out because they each ate a hearty dinner of chopped chicken, green beans, strawberries and crackers (leftovers-I did not cook) in about 3 minutes flat.  This never happens.  They were just continuing the theme of being in a concentration camp.  I admit that if they had thrown the chicken and the green beans on the floor, I would have fed them crackers only, but tonight the planets aligned and they gobbled up their meal like it was their last one.  They are now sleeping peacefully Hallelujah!


*Please note that I really don't mean to offend anyone when talking about the Holocaust like this.  It is honestly the first image that came to mind. When I was a little girl I would imagine what it was like to be in a concentration camp and always prayed I would never have to endure such horrendous torture.  I agree that this was a horrible time in History and my heart goes out to those who have suffered from these tragic events or similar ones.

Death to a Worm

We have ants.  Or we had ants, those little teeny sugar ants that smell like windex when you squish 'em with your bare hands.  So, I put in a call to the pest people and because it was Memorial Day Weekend we had to wait the ever so long weekend to get the guy to come out.  Now, we have a regular guy who comes that we really like....but a different guy came this time and he was sizing up my cleaning skills as soon as he entered my kitchen.  Mind you, I have an almost brand new kitchen (praise God for the flood last year), so my kitchen can't look that dirty.  He was running his finger across the stove and saying things like...."Yep-ants might like just a little drop of butter from a pan you left here,", or "You need to take everything out of your pantries and wipe them down with a cleaning solution of half peroxide, half water".  WOAH!  Wait! What did he just say?  Does he know what I have to do every day?  I have to pick up after these three kids, bathe them, be extremely patient with them, do their laundry, drive them places, feed them, wipe their butts, wipe their snots, wipe them in general, read them books after books, pretend I like to pretend, keep them alive and keep their daddy happy.  AND my pilates instructor wants me to do heel-toe slides, bent knee fall-outs and arm arcs every day.  I decided right then and there that the man did not have kids. 

I quietly watched as he set up all his bait traps and gel baited my kitchen; then I watched the ants come out of hiding and march along the cabinets, walls and molding to take part in the dying process.  This started James' fascination with bugs.  Did I mention we were having company for dinner that evening?  Wonderful.  We can all watch the death march. 

Upon exiting, the bug guy quietly made his way to the door and said he had just painted the room for his firstborn child coming this October. I smiled, mainly because I love to be right when I size people up and told him his world was about to be rocked, to be changed for the better. He asked how so.  I said, "You will realize just how selfish you have been your whole life".

Continuing with the theme, James decided he would "take in" a worm as a pet (thank you Kat and Suneigh for the most excellent idea!).  He dug and dug and dug a hole right in the middle of my front lawn and finally found his worm friend.  Next, he rummaged through the giant blue recycling bin, found an empty salad container, filled it with dirt, attempted to poke holes in the top (with a butter knife), and quite proudly showed me his new worm home and pet worm named "Charlie".  Well, I didn't know worms could die in just a few short hours if it's too hot and dry.  I missed that part in biology.  I thought they just needed dirt to live.  Well, sweet James kept trying to bring the worm inside and he would say, "Mom, he's just resting..."  Well, resting he was, because we killed him.  Rich got home and pronounced him dead.  And here we are having a funeral for him and laying him back into the garden from whence he came. 

To top it all off, we are trying to get rid of ringworm in our household.  We keep passing it back and forth, one to another. So when you see us, please don't touch us.  Have a blessed evening and I hope you sleep soundly thinking about all the creepy crawlies!

33 hours

I'm sitting here, stunned, utterly and eternally grateful, wondering how this all happened and thankful that it did. 

Thirty-three hours ago, my sister posted a link on facebook to a website which rallied people to collect money for the goal of giving Iva June an opportunity this summer like none that I could find here in Hampton Roads.  She will attend a Summer Speech Camp at Quilt Autism and Speech Center and hopefully learn perhaps, a little more how to communicate what is captured in her mysterious brain. 

I am in tears to have seen what the good Lord has done, completely taken aback to know that people care so deeply and am honestly overwhelmed by donations from the most unexpected places. In a short 33 hours ALL of the money was collected and not even some of my closest friends have even seen the link or know what's going on yet.  Please know MJ, Uncle Jim, Aunt Lynn, Katie and George, Charles and Cherish, Emily and Fred, Andrew and Nicole, Erin, Jenn and Josh, Aaron and Valori, and Isabella that you have touched our lives in a way that I will never ever forget. 

And for the rest of you who didn't have a chance to share in the joy yet, thank you for loving us on a daily basis and praying for our sweet girl of mystery. 

eeeee!

I'm a failure as a Mom.  I want to quit, give these kids back, or start again so I can redo some things.  I tried to see the beautiful in today, be thankful about the little things, like, the literal sunshine peeking through the clouds and my son digging around in the sand finding rocks, shells and treasures; but alas, when I looked up the weather forecast on my ipad and there was an actual rain storm picture on each of the 7 days in the the 7 day forecast, I retreated back into my shell again to whither away and wonder again what I was going to do with myself...with ourselves if it rained for 40 days and nights.  God bless Noah. 

Our family has been sick for about 10 days now.  We've all had parts of the snotty flu bug and I am not kidding you when I say EVERY time I look at Charlotte, she has boogies running down her face.  That was June last week. At the end of the day, I have very visible dried snot all over my clothes, skin and jeans, and I scrub the girls clean, but by early the next morning, Charlotte's hair has been snot-glued to her nose in the middle of the night, and June awakens with snot trails on her face.  

Even though it's been a hard week, much of it just because of my own "stuff" in my head, I am thrilled that June is trying to say something to us.  
One of the few things she says is, "EEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!"  She does it repetitively, compulsively, and depending on how loud it is, we can generally gauge whether she is upset, calm, or in some cases, ready to poop.  Trust me, it can get very annoying.  She has been saying it all day long lately.  Today was a very happy day for her.  She was almost humming her eeee's, like she was singing a song.  It was rather pleasant compared to all the eeeing she does when she is clearly upset, or in public.  I am waiting for that song.  I really think it's coming.  When I sang with her she smiled, and when I play the piano next to her, she is relaxed and engaged in the moment. 

Mostly, I wonder what are you thinking little one....and why does "eeeee" excite you so much? Goodnight little lady of wonder.

Bathing beauty. No towel needed.

June enjoying the sand at Ocean View a few weeks ago.

Teacher of the Year

I just found out my daughter's teacher received the "Teacher of the year" award at her school.  I am in tears.  Not because June's teacher is awesome.  She is.  Not because I am thrilled for what this means for her teacher.  I am.   Not because I am remembering my own journey as a teacher.  I remember it clearly.  I am moved because of what this means for June, and just how obvious I can see God's thumbprint on her life.  And to know she has gotten instruction from the best special needs pre-school teacher at Norfolk Public Schools this year is indeed, emotionally overwhelming! 

You see, in the Summer I begged for June to repeat the class that I thought must be best for her.  Same teacher.  Same agenda.  Half-way during the Summer I found out that NPS did not grant my request; However, there seemed to be a still, quiet voice whispering, "Everything is going to be okay".  I did not panic.  I waited.  I knew I would soon meet her.  And now it comes full circle.  I know why the plan was different, why June couldn't have the same teacher.  Ironically, June's former teacher was out for most of the year because of medical reasons.  God knew.  He foreknew.  He knows my future.  So happy He knows Iva June's.

Thank you Miss Citadel for giving my child the love that she so desperately doesn't even know she needs.  Thank you for spurring her on to independence in more ways than one.  Thank you for believing she can in fact, communicate.  Thank you for caring for her like your own little one.  We are really going to miss you next year!  But I KNOW God will only give June the BEST! 

Easter News

Our Easter weekend was a beautiful one, starting with and a special surprise for our precious June-bug.  A very generous family had given us a piano.  You should have seen her face on Saturday morning.  She would have said..."Wait!  Why is there a piano in our living room?"  She can now officially start becoming a piano sevant.

Saturday continued with blue-sky weather, a T-Ball game for James, egg dyeing and an awesome egg hunt at our home on Saturday. Everyone participated with eagerness...especially when they figured out there was exactly one all-natural jellybean in each egg.  I know, I make them work for 'em.  The day ended with the building of a tree house for James.  He drew up plans weeks ago....now we just need to paint it rainbow colors. Really, this story is best told in pictures.

Ben and James working on tree house

We ended our weekend with good news on Sunday morning.  We were happy to celebrate with Grandma and Grandpa!

"Death swallowed by triumphant LIFE!  Who got the last word, oh death?  Oh death, who is afraid of you now?  It was sin that made death so frightening and law-code guilt that gave sin its leverage, its destructive power. But now, in a single, victorious stroke of LIFE, all three-sin, guilt, death-are gone, the gift of our Master, Jesus Christ."  from I Corinthians 15 (the MSG)

Happy Easter eve!

Opposites

I'm going to brag a little bit.  Firstly, I can't believe God has graced me with the presence of some very opposite children in this house.  We have every personality imaginable here.  Some are loud at night, some are loud during the day.  Some don't talk at all, some talk non-stop.  Some bite.  Some give hugs.  Some seek attention.  Some would like to spend the day alone in their room, pining away after the blinds.  Some like to be outside in the cold with no jacket on. Some cry when they are out in the cold.  Hard to imagine they come from us.  Oh....but I guess everyone has one thing in common.  They all like to be naked and they all love the water.  I guess that part might be inherited. 

So, James got "tested" for Kindergarten a few days ago and he, of course, passed with flying colors and was at-range or above range for every subject measured.  It's nice to know that he will most likely be successful in school Hallelujah.  What blew me away though, was that his linguistic score was measured at age 6.5.  She said he got every single question right when asked for opposites and when also given a verb and had to say a noun to accompany a verb.  For instance, she said "blow", and he had to come up with "wind".  So just how does THAT happen when I have another one who does not speak at all?  Don't these types of things typically run in families?  Again, I tell you, Iva June is a sweet mystery. I wouldn't have in any other way because she speaks to me in ways I can't express. The ways of the angels.

June has a routine in the morning and it goes like this.  Get up (with whining).  Change diaper.  Get dressed.  Eat breakfast.  Shoes on.  Coat on.  Wait at door for bus.  So, for a few days now she has been doing something that I think is remarkable.  She's been getting the toy die-cast bus and examining it, making bus noises, while she waits for the bus.

She's speaking to me.  Can you see it?  Her teacher also just told me she's been signing the word "candy at school to get a treat.  I'm impressed.

June with therapist

She's also been using the ipad and and participating in circle time.  I can't wait to spy on her.  She looks so happy.

June with her teacher

I'm ending with another brag.  My son told me for the first time that he loved me on Valentine's Day.  What a special treat.  I've been waiting for this moment for 5 years.  Most people get "I love you" at 2.  Not me. I guess he was waiting for perfect timing.  He came in the back door after being outside for a while, holding two perfect Camelia blooms (no stems of course) in his hand.  He said, "Mom, these are for you for Valentine's Day because I love you".  I melted, of course.

Five minutes later, my husband came in the door with these.  I guess someone is watching his Daddy.

I am blessed.