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I'm a failure as a Mom.  I want to quit, give these kids back, or start again so I can redo some things.  I tried to see the beautiful in today, be thankful about the little things, like, the literal sunshine peeking through the clouds and my son digging around in the sand finding rocks, shells and treasures; but alas, when I looked up the weather forecast on my ipad and there was an actual rain storm picture on each of the 7 days in the the 7 day forecast, I retreated back into my shell again to whither away and wonder again what I was going to do with myself...with ourselves if it rained for 40 days and nights.  God bless Noah. 

Our family has been sick for about 10 days now.  We've all had parts of the snotty flu bug and I am not kidding you when I say EVERY time I look at Charlotte, she has boogies running down her face.  That was June last week. At the end of the day, I have very visible dried snot all over my clothes, skin and jeans, and I scrub the girls clean, but by early the next morning, Charlotte's hair has been snot-glued to her nose in the middle of the night, and June awakens with snot trails on her face.  

Even though it's been a hard week, much of it just because of my own "stuff" in my head, I am thrilled that June is trying to say something to us.  
One of the few things she says is, "EEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!"  She does it repetitively, compulsively, and depending on how loud it is, we can generally gauge whether she is upset, calm, or in some cases, ready to poop.  Trust me, it can get very annoying.  She has been saying it all day long lately.  Today was a very happy day for her.  She was almost humming her eeee's, like she was singing a song.  It was rather pleasant compared to all the eeeing she does when she is clearly upset, or in public.  I am waiting for that song.  I really think it's coming.  When I sang with her she smiled, and when I play the piano next to her, she is relaxed and engaged in the moment. 

Mostly, I wonder what are you thinking little one....and why does "eeeee" excite you so much? Goodnight little lady of wonder.

Bathing beauty. No towel needed.

June enjoying the sand at Ocean View a few weeks ago.